fs02: A Domme’s View – Arc 2 – Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Author’s Note:  This was originally written as a Bonus Chapter to Arc 1 but I have changed it to be the first Chapter in Arc 2.

James Frederick “Freddie” Sanford was a neighborhood boy that grew up a few houses down from my childhood home. His father was also named James but instead of using some variant like Jim or Jimmy, he ended up going by his middle name in his early years. Freddie was a year younger than me. He was shy, sweet, and often lonely. I think I was his only friend. We spent a lot of time together and he would frequently cling to me when he felt uncomfortable.

I was a wild girl, usually too wild for the other girls my age, so Freddie was my perfect partner in crime. I would torment that poor boy and make him do things that he didn’t want to. If he refused I would threaten to never play with him again and he always buckled. Always. When I was young I had a total fascination with Wonderous Woman, which had a popular television adaptation airing on a major network. This was my game of choice. Since Wonderous Woman needed a villain to catch Freddie was nearly always my (un)willing victim.

My love of tying up and torturing boys had to start somewhere, and it started with Freddie. More times than not, if I got in trouble and ended up being spanked, it was for pushing Freddie past what he could handle. I scratched a W into his rear with a stick. I led him around on a leash. That poor boy.

When I hit 5th grade I bloomed and suddenly became aware of well, myself. Self-awareness was not kind to my old lifestyle and before long I was hanging out with the cool girls, talking about boys, caring about my clothes, and I abandoned my former self.

By that time Freddie was already a pariah. He was the boy that got beat up by the girl (me). The other kids bullied him when I wasn’t around to protect him (my magic lasso and bullet proof wristbands were instruments of destruction). When I changed myself I left Freddie behind. I still remember (and regret) the day that I cut him off. I kicked him out of the bus seat in favor of my friend Margot and told him that I never wanted to see him again. He cried and cried while the other kids laughed and chanted “Freddie is a loser” for the duration of the ride. Anti-bullying rules didn’t exist back then.

I lived that new life until my marriage ended in divorce and at 30, I decided to rediscover myself. I am a dominant woman.

I had completely forgotten about Freddie until my mother discovered an old box of photos and learned how to use a scanner. About once a week she sends me a new (old) picture from those days and I sift through my memories. Most of them include Freddie (and me tormenting him).

If those early days were truly the birth of my Domme persona, I have to wonder what happened to Freddie. I didn’t speak to him after that day on the bus but my mother told me that his family moved a couple of years later. I remember secretly crying in my room without telling anyone. Sometimes I wonder how he’s doing. Sometimes I wonder if he ended up a submissive.

I try not to think about him too much. I can’t handle the guilt when I face what I did to him and how I let him down.

Maybe someday I will be brave enough to track him down and find out. That time isn’t now.

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2 thoughts on “fs02: A Domme’s View – Arc 2 – Chapter 12

  1. Wow! It’s going to be a fascinating saga. And we are only in 1st arc. I imagine (or rather: I can’t imagine what will be when you filled up – let’s say – 9 arcs with all well-though, talented writing. I liked both the strenght and weakness of Wanda character, even more weakness as it makes her more real, more human then only fantasy figure. And the FBO think was really hot! I just waiting patiently for more comments from Ladies on Wanda and other prospective female characters.
    There are one or two minor typos here and there but who doesn’t make them while in the fever poetic vein? All in all a very good read! Thank you!
    Peter

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    1. Thank you, Peter.
      If you could please let me know the typos either here or via my contact form or email that would be great. I was home with a fever all day and ended up staying up way too late finishing this (almost 3am) I would appreciate it..

      This was the first chapter that I didn’t actually send out for anyone to read first. And I realize I have to write a chapter 11. 10 has the “Capra ending.” I hit publish in the heat of the moment. Unfortunately someone already pointed some things out and I agree with their assessment, so there will be a chapter 11 published shortly to round things out.

      I am happy that you enjoyed it.
      Take care.

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