fs02: A Domme’s View – Arc 3 – Chapter 24

Chapter 24

It’s been two months since parting with James. We tried to make it work, we really did. It just wasn’t a good fit. I like James. He tried so hard. There were just parts of him that he couldn’t… or wouldn’t let go of. In the first month everything was new and exciting. He was eager to learn and grew by leaps and bounds as a submissive and in pursuit of pleasing me. It was clear that he cared about me.

Unfortunately, James wasn’t a very good communicator and after a while, something changed. He lost his eagerness. I started sensing resentment from him. He used to be obey without hesitation and always tried his best. Over time it started feeling like he was pouting, he started conveniently forgetting things, and he seemed to get very little joy from service. I started thinking that he was depressed.

I would set aside time for us to talk about and he would tell me that everything was fine and that he was happy. I told him to be honest. He would say nothing. As things continued we started getting into arguments. At first, he had been spending two days a week at his home and five days a week at my place and he began asking for more days off. I granted him the first but when he asked for another I demanded that we talk. The question surprised me: “Is this the only kind of Femdom there is?”

I knew immediately that I was not the Domme for him. In turn, he was not the sub for me. Surprisingly, I wasn’t hurt. I was relieved. I was relieved that there was such a simple explanation for all of this. The ways that he wanted to submit were not the ways that I was looking for. In the past I had shot many potential subs down so early in the process. With James it was the first time that I saw things through and understood that the compatibility isn’t always there, even if you want it to be.

I do want to say that it wasn’t just the D/s compatibility that was a factor. James and I were very different people with very different interests. I’m not a lively party girl by any means but I enjoy the occasional night out, movies, and the like. David was so good for me in that regards. He was an encyclopedia of knowledge and always had recommendations for me and something interest to talk about. James had grown accustomed to a certain lifestyle that eventually he did not wish to give up. He wanted to watch football. He wanted to order pizza four days a week. If there weren’t any sports on, he wanted to play Mark of Duty on his Zbox. Early on he was eager to worship my feet. A few months in, it was obvious he would have been rather doing something else as he half-assed his way through a feeble attempt.

That bond just wasn’t there, you know? The parting was mutual and amicable. He thanked me for giving him a chance and for making a man out of him. I believe he will have the confidence to pursue another Domme, but one that is a bit more relaxed and casual than I was. Well, that and I think he wanted to spend more time tied up having his dick played with. That just isn’t me.

I don’t regret the James experiment. I learned a lot. He learned a lot. I feel a lot more comfortable and confident with himself as a Domme. It was a worthwhile experience.

It has been over a year since David passed. I still miss him. Sometimes I talk to him inside of me. I talked to him a lot when I was struggling with James. I appreciated his read into what was going on. Don’t you think it’s funny when you know someone so intimately that you can predict what they are thinking and what they would say? That’s another way that David lives on inside of me. I have decided to visit his grave at least three times a year. I go on the anniversary of our collaring ceremony, his birthday, and the anniversary of his death. Sometimes I go there when I just need to talk to him out loud. It feels good to get things off my chest. David always was a good listener and he still is.

So that’s what I’ve been up to for the past six months or so. Did you miss me?

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17 thoughts on “fs02: A Domme’s View – Arc 3 – Chapter 24

  1. Yes, I missed it too. But rather then a hot story with, masterfully developing through a dozen or so chapters up to its tragic crescendo – like in unforgettable Erich Segal’s film ( who knows what am I talking about?) – we’ve got a nice and thought-provoking lecture on F/m, D/s compatibility.
    Nice, because it was told by our loving Wanda – thought-provoking, because it was scripted by internationally acclaimed femdom expert Professor Furius Cornelius Sissilanus. Thank you very much Miss Wanda, thank you very much Professor. I’m going to catch some sleep now in order to be on time at lecture #25.
    Peter

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      1. It’s classic for that decade. Maybe a bit to mawkish for my taste but its main theme somehow tuned in my imagination with arc 2 of fs02. And the music motif still plays in my memory vividly. Thanks for not revealing the title. It’s a riddle for younger readers, though quite easy one.
        Peter

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  2. Thank you Ms SG. Thank you Professor.
    Oh! Just received an email from Dean’s Office.They say that will be no lecture tomorrow morning. Professor F. is invited for a very imported seminar run by a wealthy lady who is a notable sponsor of our university. But all of his student are welcome too. There will be a bus waiting in front of the library for willing to attend. I confirmed my willingness. I’m a good student, hungry for knowlegde on this very subject. I don’t want to miss a bit.
    Peter

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