I was very uncertain about whether or not I would publish Arc 4. I started writing it without having a plot line in mind, merely picking up after the end of Arc 3. A few very unexpected things happened. The Wanda inside of me began to evolve and the path became clear. It was a struggle for me to try and put this down on paper. Arc 4 started with a rather drastic feel change compared to the previous Arcs. It was different. It felt strange. I wasn’t sure that it would work. I wasn’t sure that it would be interesting or entertaining to read. I also worry a bit that too frequently this story is turning into more of a character drama than an erotica work.
My greatest fear in writing fiction is that what I write will be bad. People won’t like it. People won’t want to read it. People will move onto something else and I will never know why. At the same time I get insecure about praise. I worry that the people that I am close to are “just being nice” and wouldn’t tell me if something sucked, or they somehow make themselves like it because it’s me.
While I’m very rational in many areas, confidence in my creative areas are not one of them.
I decided to hold off from publishing Arc 4 because it gave me the freedom to trash it if it didn’t turn out right. As I pressed onward it started to come together and the story finally reached a point where I was certain that I wanted to publish it.
That being said, I will likely wait until I have all of Arc 4 completed before publishing it. Wanda’s emotions have again taken over my pen and the planned plot got all messed up. I feel like I’m going to have to write it all the way through to make sure that things remain consistent.
I should have it posted by the end of the week. Thanks for being patient.